Brett's Discernment

So I really appreciate NPR (I am a member!), and sometimes stories on a program just hit you really surprisingly.

Today driving back from church there was a story brilliantly told about a bull, named Chance, and the remarkable story of his life, death . . . and more. It is act two of the link above, you can access it in the player. I leave it here so I can come back to it and some of the poignant truths therein.

Some realizations I am very, very, very slowly coming to:
In a week and a half Kate will move out and Jason will move in . . .
In a week and a couple days I will be done with my first year of seminary and on my way to Virginia . . .
I realize I don't "really" have a home anymore - I deeply feel Virginia is my home, and my parents' house is, but will I end up living there again? I hope so. But who knows.
I start CPE in 16 days. Am I ready?
I used to think coming back and being a student again would be hard. Not so much. I am glad I took the time off and worked in the "real world," but the negative is it gives me even less patience with my classmates who complain constantly about waking up at totally reasonable (I think, I realize this is a matter of opinion) hour of the morning.
I hate group work. I thought this would change. . . I mean, I have been in good groups, but I especially do not do well in "groups" where the information is divided and handed out and then shared. I cannot handle it. I prefer either simple dialogue or working alone.
Most of all, this first year of seminary has greatly affirmed many of my strengths for ministry, some which I didn't know I had. Conversely, it has also given me a much clearer and longer list of "growing edges" I need to work on, and I feel confident that I can articulate those going into CPE.